announcement of awesomeness.

(SPOILER ALERT: CHP classmates, reading may spoil your mood. Most of the time I'm the one harboring snarky bitter wishes to see that obnoxiously diligent student trip and fall on her face, but right now I'm that student. I had a good day! Please don't trip me next time we meet.)

After weeks of feeling hopelessly incompetent - scrambling to finish papers, scratching my head during exams, clueless about navigating grown-up life without showing I'm clueless - someone's thrown me a bone. Thanks Mentor. You are Awesome.

I spent ages working on this pretend grant, an assignment for class which will also double (handy!) as the first two chapters of my thesis. I sat up for hours the night before, bleary-eyed and slaving over the last bit of it which turned out to be way more work than I'd bargained for. I felt like the crappiest of crap, barely skirting in under the deadline something I thought wasn't nearly what it should be and in which my mentor - who knows the project well - would surely find a billion flaws. Auuughhh. Commence hiding under pillows and humming.

But - no! In fact he too said he'd thought he would approach it over-critically knowing all about it, but that he didn't need to: it was an excellently written work! Oooh. And told me today - I'm still glowing - that with the chapters written and most of the data collected, I'm further on my thesis than any first-year he's had. Anything that happened after that was all marshmallows and tiny lutes as far as I'm concerned. I have done things right. I FEEL SO GOOD.

I am going to keep this going as long as possible, which means never looking at my final grade for Child Assessment.